This is all so strange. Some chick put a hit out on my Kal, but there is no reason as to why she should. He did nothing. I just want this all to stop. I hate hearing him talk about him dying. It is upseting. I just wish we could find this chick and figure out what is wrong in her messed up mind. So, here I am praying all of this resolves itself without Kal being harmed. I am gonna ask the guild for this advice.

So, um today.. I got hit on by an troll, Jenrok. He wants to take me to dinner. I said yes. Hmm.
Kal was a chicken.. I wanted to punt him. I hate when he appears out of no where as something other than himself! I wish he would warn me first. Here I am expecting Kal and I get a chicken instead. Funny, but not what I was expecting. I do hope Kal does not find out this though, I was walking through Silvermoon and accidently walked through a fight. I got shot in the shoulder. I got the bullet out and bandaged it. It really hurts, but I do not want him to worry or get upset, not that I think he will. I just.. I should have heard the commotion going on, the screaming, and yelling. However, I was thinking about something else and I just walked into the cross fire. They didn't even care. They just kept shooting at each other until the sentry came. They ran and I was left there alone to try and bandage my bleeding arm that had a bullet in it. Some people are soooo inconsiderate. I want to tell Kal, but I know he will baby me, and I like that times, but not when it was my own fault like this.

Time stops as he walks in.
I turn to look at him.
A smile is all I need.
To send me weak in the knees.
Love fills me.
Happiness fills me.
I can not get over how great it is.
To be with him like this.
Nothing can ever ruin this.
This is forever.

These evening was one of the faboulous club nights. I brought Kal. We danced until he had to leave. It was sad when he left, but he had.. things to do? I am not really sure why he had to leave, but I can find out later. I really enjoyed all the dancing. I got to show off my sexy moves to everyone. Now that I have adjusted into the tribe I am not so shy anymore. I am not afarid to be myself anymore. I am hope I have proven myself worthy of a promotion to tribemate soon. I danced to impress with Zon'Krul. He showed me how to get my moves to be even sexier. It was really fun dancing with him. Then I danced with Pip and Uru. It was a like I was the meat between two pieces of bread. It was a Lina sandwich! You know I love it though. I danced with Vivi too. We did a bit of slow dancing, which was a lot of fun. I spun her around and dipped her. It was hilarious. Some of the songs I requested were picked to be played, which was amazing! This was the best club night I have ever been too. I think it was because I have settled into the tribe.

I love him so much. Time will only tell how long I will have to wait until he is ready to take the next step. I think I am there. Perhaps. I am not sure. All I know is I can not get enough of him. I love spending time with him. Seeing him. Surprising him.

Is this really gonna last? Is this the one that is meant for me. Will I finally get to be loved and know marriage life? Am I finally met to be happy?

I so hope this is true. I want it so bad, but I want it to be right. I hope I have the strength to wait and be patient and not blow this.

Today, I drew a picture of myself. I hope it is good. I was bored sitting at home. I love living here with Kal. I feel we are really getting to see what it is gonna be like living together. This will be the test to see if we will work out well together or not. I love him. I have yet to find anything about him I do not like. So, I hope the same goes for him. I think that is a discussion we should have sometime. Oh. He gave me the greatest gift ever the other day. A little guardian cub. We named him, Avhen. Avy for short. He is so adorable. He thinks I am his mother and he is very protective. He sleeps with us in the bed. He is so much like a child. I love it. I take him everywhere with me. I love Kal for getting me the most perfect gift ever.